About a month ago I was sitting in a meeting and the speaker quoted some words from a song by Babbie Mason called Trust His Heart.
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don’t understand
When you don’t see His plan
When you can’t trace His hand
Trust His Heart
I scribbled the words in my journal and just a few days ago, I came across them again. Reading the words on the page I asked myself, “Do you believe it?”
Do you believe that God is too wise to be mistaken?
Do you believe He is too good to be unkind?
Do you trust His heart even when things are difficult or don’t make sense?
When the world around you grows dark?
The truth is there are many who profess to know God. There are many that claim to have a relationship with Jesus Christ but words such as these come from a heart that has been convinced that God is who He says He is.
A few weeks ago, I walked into the home of my friend, Diane who is suffering from stage four cervical cancer. The cancer has spread to the bone and that particular day she was in terrible pain – more than I’d ever seen. I called her doctors. I frantically sought solutions. I felt helpless. I said to her, “Diane, I’m going to ask God for His help and relief.” I thought to myself, “Will this pain take her? Is there nothing that can be done? Does it just get worse from here? “
Then I laid my hand on her and called out to God with a prayer of desperation, pleading for God to comfort her. It wasn’t a pretty prayer. It was a plea for God to pour out His mercy. When I finished, I sat there quietly.
Will He work right away?
Will the pain begin to subside?
I looked for signs that God had heard me. All the while, an inner dialog was taking place. God, no matter what I see or feel, You are God and I trust you! You are a good and loving God!
Often, Diane would share how she desires some quality time with her kids. She didn’t want to be in so much pain she couldn’t enjoy them and make their moments together count. Honestly, I wondered if the best that could be done for Diane that day and in the days to come was to continue to seek ways to get her comfortable there on her couch and try to manage her pain even if the medications made her sleep. I couldn’t imagine her getting out for a breath of fresh air or a drive in the sunshine. It seemed like all that was behind her now.
But God is too good to be unkind.
With the help of hospice, Diane has been feeling better over the past week or so and has been able to manage her pain. It’s been so nice to see her laugh and eat and have the quality time with her children we had prayed for. Just two days ago, my sister and I had the privilege to take Diane and her children out to a beautiful little town not far from us and take photos. I went to her home and did her makeup. We talked wardrobe. There was excitement in the air. We got in our cars and headed out to the location and on the way, I thought, Wow, God. You did this. I remembered back to that day on the couch and my fears that she would not enjoy the sun again.
The shoot was beautiful. The moments were so special. I could feel God’s presence. He was smiling down.
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The reality is that Diane doesn’t know how many days she has. None of us do. But she knows Who numbers her days.
We all face sadness and sorrow in this life. But we are not alone. God’s solution to pain and death was not just a temporary fix. He decided to redeem our eternity once and for all. He also promised to walk with us through our days here on earth. He describes our time here as fleeting.
How do you know what your life will be like tomorrow? Your life is like the morning fog–it’s here a little while, then it’s gone. James 4:14
I don’t understand God’s ways. His thoughts are higher than mine. Isaiah 55:8-9 All I know is that He conquered the disease of death for all of us. We can experience this life through faith in His Son, Jesus, if we will invite Him into our lives. And yes, we may suffer a while as His children but in the end, the victory has been won and He is our Victor. He is Diane’s Victor over death.
Cancer doesn’t win. God does. And Diane does because of Christ.
So for now, we will look for God in the moments.
Because God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
And though I don’t always understand
When I don’t see His plan
When I can’t trace His hand
I Trust His Heart
Psalm 23
The Lord is my shepherd;
I have all that I need.
2 He lets me rest in green meadows;
he leads me beside peaceful streams.
3 He renews my strength.
He guides me along right paths,
bringing honor to his name.
4 Even when I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will not be afraid,
for you are close beside me.
Your rod and your staff
protect and comfort me.
5 You prepare a feast for me
in the presence of my enemies.
You honor me by anointing my head with oil.
My cup overflows with blessings.
6 Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me
all the days of my life,
and I will live in the house of the Lord
forever.
Christine - Tammy, thank you so much for sharing this! Thank you for praying for Diane. The pictures are wonderful and show the love that surrounds Diane and her family <3